Saturday, November 11, 2000

Chapter 2

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Chapter 2
"So tell me again how this works," Edward spoke to the angel beside him.
They had weathered the storm and were now circling around O'Hare airport waiting for their turn to land. Seth informed Edward they would be in the air for at least another thirty minutes and he had already learned not to question what the big man said.
"What's so hard to figure out, Eddie?" Seth chuckled at him as he crossed his large leg over the other and regarded Edward with a grin. "I am always right, you are always wrong, and it would be in your best interest to do everything I say."
Edward scoffed at that statement and then settled back in his seat. "That is not what I meant and you know it. How do I go about this fixing things business? I'm just supposed to show up out of the blue and approach people whom years ago I did something wrong to?"
"Oh, Eddie, my boy, if only it were that easy!" Seth bellowed, and Edward scowled at him.
Being laughed at was certainly not something Edward Cullen was accustomed to, and he didn't enjoy it, not in the least.
"Well then, because apparently we've got time, why don't you just tell me what the plan is so I can get started," he grouched.
Seth regarded Edward for a moment and knew that he was about to burst Edward's self-deluded little bubble. If he thought a simple 'I'm sorry,' was going to work, he was very sadly mistaken. Seth chuckled softly to himself, poor Edward. He sure was in for a rather rude awakening.
"Edward Anthony, just off the top of my head, you have to work on repairing your relationship with your employees, your colleagues, your friends, the few you have managed to hang on to, your brother, your parents and most importantly, your wife," Seth ticked off, and smiled when the look of utter disgust crossed young Edward's face.
"You're telling me I have to do all that, plus others?" Edward cried pitifully. He shook his head and looked out the window. "No way," he stated unequivocally. "I won't do it. No way, no how. You said I had the option of free will, didn't you?" he challenged as he whipped his head around to stare at the man. "Well, I am exercising my right to say no," Edward said crossly.
"Then I guess I should best be on my way," Seth said with a sigh. "I had such high hopes for you, too, Edward Anthony Cullen. Give my regards to your lovely wife," Seth said as he gave Edward one last look.
God damn it! Edward thought fiercely to himself. He didn't want to have to make a fool out of himself to all those people by apologizing. Who's to say he did anything wrong in the first place? he stubbornly asked himself. But no matter how vehemently he tried to argue against it, he knew deep down that he owed apologies, more than apologies actually, to all those Seth had named.
And those were just the tip of the iceberg!
"Wait," Edward said resignedly. "Damn it, just wait!" he said again as he hung his head and rested it in his hands. "I'll do it. Whoever I need to make amends with, I will. It's time," he went on. "I know it is, but I'll need help."
"Edward, my boy, it's not like I'm sending you into the lion's den all alone. It's my job to help you, so no worries my young friend. While you might feel like you've gone a round or two with Muhammad Ali, great man by the way, it will be worth it in the end." Seth laughed heartily and filled his seat once more.
"Shit," Edward muttered to himself and hunched down in his seat like a petulant little child as he thought about the agonizing process he was about to undertake. Going over a quick mental list, he discerned there would be some amends that would be easier and quicker to make than others. He couldn't decide whether to approach those first and get them out of the way, or save them for last and start on the hard ones first.
Cursing his inability to continue blindly living the way he had been, Edward faced Seth once more. "So, any suggestions on where to start first?"
"Ah, well, the lovely Isabella Marie," Seth said giddily.
At the mention of his wife's name, Edward was once again filled with a sense of warmth and longing that took him by surprise. He was really, unexpectedly, looking forward to going home to see her.
"Why Isabella first?" Edward questioned as another glass of the miraculous amber liquid appeared on the tray in front of him.
Seth gazed at Edward, his icy blue eyes intense and said seriously, "She is the key to it all, Edward Anthony. Isabella is essential to your path to redemption. Without her, your efforts to correct your past deeds mean nothing. She is, without a doubt, the greatest gift you have ever been given, but she is also the one who you've wronged the most."
His words had a ring of truth to them that Edward found hard to dispute as they prickled uncomfortably at his conscience. Years of living in denial behind his carefully constructed walls, however, were not easy to shake. Edward knew he was a less than ideal husband, but that didn't stop him from wanting to deny both his feelings of guilt, and Seth's seemingly altruistic motives. Hell, no one in their right mind ever wanted to admit that they'd been wrong, and Edward Cullen was certainly no different. For years it had been easier to try to convince himself that Isabella was just another pretty face, even if deep down he knew there was much more to her than that. He was quite the master at keeping up the cool, aloof façade.
"Why is she so important? She's nothing out of the ordinary. A beautiful woman to be sure, but there's not much else there," Edward said dismissively with a wave of his hand and swig of his drink while all the while he cursed his subconscious for yelling at him for such a bold-faced lie.
Seth scoffed at him and shook his head. "Deluded fool. That is what you are, Eddie. Tell me, what exactly do you know about your bride of five years?"
Edward took another drink of the delicious scotch and enjoyed the warmth that spread through his body. "She's not much. Isabella, like I said, is a very beautiful woman. Anyone could tell you that. She's a good wife and when I need someone on my arm at a function or an event, she's the perfect decorative accessory. She's good in bed when I need to have sex. She seems to enjoy it, too, which I'm not fool enough to discount. She takes care of the house and takes care of herself. She is an excellent editor and seems to have a real knack for finding diamonds in the rough, which from a business sense, is most appreciated. All in all, she fulfills all of her duties more than satisfactorily, so I don't have any complaints."
Lies, all of it. Edward knew full well the amazing woman his wife was. The fact that he was an idiot and terrified of his own feelings for her notwithstanding, Isabella was truly the best person he'd ever met in his life. Knowing that, and still acting like the cold bastard he usually was with her, was almost criminal.
"Ah, I see," Seth said in a voice that had an undercurrent Edward couldn't describe. "Tell me, what do you think she does with her days when she is not editing her 'diamonds in the rough' for you and your company?"
Edward gave the question passing consideration before he answered. "I imagine she shops, has lunches with her girlfriends, reads her novels. I know she works out every day, and I also know she goes to Mass frequently. Other than that, not much. Like I said, there isn't much substance to her."
While it was true he didn't know what she did with her time when they weren't together or she wasn't at work, shopping and having long lunches did not seem like his wife. Why he was trying to lie to an angel, who he was positive could see right through his bullshit, he had no idea.
Self-preservation? Blind hope? Foolish wishes? Any of those would do, but still Edward stubbornly refused to admit anything.
"So she fits what you need her to be?" Seth asked pointedly and Edward nodded his head in the affirmative.
"Edward, Edward," Seth sighed. "How someone that possesses the extreme intelligence that God granted you and still be so clueless or purposefully obtuse is totally beyond even my advanced comprehension."
"What in the hell are you talking about?" Edward demanded, affronted at the implied insult.
Seth shook his head at his young charge again and leaned in close to him. While it was true that no one could see or hear him except for Edward, he needed to convey what he was about to say with the utmost certainty. "Edward Anthony Cullen, in all of my years, and they are too numerous to count, I have never, ever encountered anyone as oblivious as you. You know nothing about Isabella Marie, nothing."
"What do you I mean I don't know anything about her? I've been married to the woman for five years, of course I know her," Edward stated, ignoring the pangs in his subconscious that tried to tell him that maybe he didn't, not really.
Edward knew he didn't know all there was to know about her, though. He held back just enough from her to protect himself and to keep himself from getting too close to her.
"You don't, and the fact that you don't..." Seth said with a glare that caused Edward to shrink away from the large man. "...makes you, and pardon my language, an asshole. And not just an asshole, but quite possibly the world's biggest asshole in the history of assholes," the angel stated with feeling.
"What it comes down to is this, Eddie; you don't know Isabella at all and because you don't, you don't have any idea how incredibly lucky you really are," Seth said decisively.
"I'm not an asshole," Edward grumbled querulously.
Seth snorted in response to his outburst but didn't say anything else for he could tell his assignment was deep in thought as he tried to find the hole in Seth's argument. Knowing he wouldn't be able to, Seth sat back in his seat, though the motion was completely unnecessary.
Being an angel had its advantages, and not having to be confined to set spaces was certainly near the top of the list, but he sat anyway.
Edward Cullen was certainly going to test him and his incredible abilities, Seth was sure. The man had years upon years of walls built up around himself and he hoped Isabella Marie had the fortitude to break through every last one of them. Seth knew, fully, the incredible woman Isabella Marie Swan Cullen was, having helped direct her toward Edward in the first place, but even at that, Seth couldn't help but be anxious that she would fail in her attempts.
Seth glanced at Edward again and smiled to himself as he watched the space between Edward's eyebrows dip due to the deep frown on his face. Yep, Seth thought happily, he was indeed trying to dispute Seth's observations but so far he hadn't been able to discount them at all.
Yes, Edward Anthony Cullen was going to be one tough nut to crack but Seth was going to do his damnedest to ensure that Edward was able to, when the time came, leave this world happy and most importantly at peace. He deserved no less after the heartache and pain he'd had to endure, most of which was still buried in the fortress where his heart also resided.
Isabella Swan Cullen certainly had her work cut out for her.
Edward shifted in his seat uncomfortably, alternating between wanting to hurry home to see his wife and dreading seeing her at the same time. Was he that big of a blind asshole that he truly had no idea who Isabella really was? he thought to himself over and over. Was he that wrapped up in his own life and his own pursuits that he didn't even bother to pay attention to the comings and goings of his own wife? Edward groaned and then shifted again as he realized the answers to both of those fucking questions was a resounding yes.
"Son of a bitch," Edward hissed lowly and hung his head when Seth laughed at him. A full, belly-rumbling laugh.
"Damn angel," Edward muttered to himself.
"It's not a pleasant thought is it, Eddie?" Seth asked rhetorically.
"So tell me about her. Tell me what I've missed by being, as you so eloquently put it, the world's biggest asshole," Edward demanded as he looked out the window and wondered how much longer until they would be cleared for landing.
Edward didn't want to admit it, but he believed, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that the plane would have crashed if Seth hadn't been there to intervene. It was a chilling thought and he thought, again, how utterly ridiculous it was that it took a near-death experience to make him face some unwelcome facts.
"We only have about fifteen more minutes until the pilot will get the all clear to land," Seth answered the silent question and Edward focused his much practiced glare at Seth.
"I thought you said you couldn't read my mind," Edward said accusingly.
Seth waved his hand dismissively and said, "We can't, but I am very good at reading people and your body language is screaming your dichotomous position. You want to go home and see your lovely bride but at the same time you are terrified of facing her knowing what you know now."
Edward refused to answer, which in turn spoke more clearly than words ever could, though Seth decided to let that observation pass without comment. He decided to instead talk a bit about his most favorite human, Isabella Marie.
"Isabella is perhaps, one of the most brilliant people you will ever meet, man or woman," Seth began quietly. "She is also one of the kindest, most gentle ones as well. She has a wicked sense of humor and she could beat just about anyone you know, including you, at soccer as well as golf," he went on and raised his eyebrow at the snort of disbelief Edward let forth.
"Are you sure you have the right Isabella? I'll give you the kind and gentle, but as for the rest, that is not my wife," Edward said to the angel.
Edward remembered during their time before they became engaged, Isabella speaking of her soccer playing days. He also recalled the look of longing she had on her face when she would recall a game or spending time with her father at the soccer fields playing and practicing. Christ, he really could be a self-absorbed ass couldn't he? he thought derisively to himself.
"I most certainly have the correct Isabella, Edward Anthony. All of what I have told you is true, and you would know it yourself if you wouldn't have been so focused on conquering her and instead got to know her and let's not even discuss your fear of intimacy," Seth calmly replied and grinned in satisfaction when Edward had the grace to look sufficiently chagrined.
"And as for your absurd statements about Isabella spending her time going to lunch and shopping, well I should knee you in the groin for making such a callous remark," Seth said disgustedly.
"You can do that?" Edward fearfully asked, truly afraid of the pain such a gesture would bring about. The fact that he deserved it didn't really help, either.
"I could," Seth said succinctly. "But I won't, at least not this time. Let's get something straight, boy, before I fill you in on the incredibleness that is your wife. I may be an otherworldly being who has been sent to help you find your redemption, but that does not mean that I won't kick your ass if it comes right down to it," the large man growled to Edward. "I am quite sure I don't fit into the mold of what you believe my kind to typically be, which I am quite positive is why I was the one chosen for this task. You are an ass and a selfish bastard, Edward Anthony Cullen, and I won't hesitate to tell you as often as I see fit. Do you understand where I'm coming from?" Seth questioned with a quirk of his eyebrow.
What the hell had he gotten himself into? Edward wondered. Jesus, he did not relish the thought of having a continued presence reminding him of what an asshole he'd been. He briefly considered whether or not this whole endeavor was worth all this unpleasantness in the end.
"It's worth it, Edward," Seth said as he watched his companion.
Rather than try to decipher again how the being knew what he was thinking, Edward responded back honestly, "Yes, I imagine that it is."
"Now with the brief time we have left before I have to help the pilot land this monstrosity let me tell you more about the fair Isabella. She is, as you know, the best editor you have in your employ. She is amazingly in tune with what readers will respond to and she is an extremely talented writer in her own right. You know perfectly well Isabella has never been one to just casually shop for clothes, which you can most assuredly be able to tell from your bank account. The both of you have more than plenty of money that she could easily live the life of leisure you assume she does, if she chose to do, which we both know she does not. When she is not working either at home or at the office, you can usually find her in one of two places. Isabella volunteers as a tutor at an elementary school in Evanston for underprivileged children where she is the most beloved of all the volunteers. She bakes cookies for the children and reads to them and helps the older ones with their homework. If she is not at the school then you can find her outside in her garden. Isabella spends time with her mother and grandmother and even occasionally your mother and sister-in-law. Between her work, volunteer work, and her gardening, there isn't much free time left for her to have lunches or shop as you so idiotically said. She is a self-sufficient woman, Edward, and one that has been neglected by you for far too long."
Edward shook his head as he tried to process all of that information. There was no way, no way in hell he had misjudged her so horribly…was there?
Apparently he had because everything in him screamed that Seth was telling him nothing but the absolute truth, besides angels can't lie. Seth had told him so. Which meant that yes, he was indeed, the biggest asshole in the history of the world. Not to mention that whole neglectful, scared thing he had going on as well.
"Oh, and one more tidbit to leave you with before I must concentrate on getting us safely to the ground," Seth said as he shrewdly regarded Edward. "Isabella Marie loves you with her entire being. You are the center of her universe and though you have spent the past five years with your head so far up your ass you needed an angel to help you see the light so to speak, she loves you even more today than she did the day she gave herself to you."
With that, Seth closed his eyes to concentrate on helping the dangerously inexperienced pilot land the large aircraft. If humans knew how hard angels had to work on a daily basis to protect them from things like this, it would be a miracle if anyone flew ever again.
Though the lightning and thunder had stopped, the winds were still howling and it was apparent to Edward that the pilot had not one fucking clue as to what he was doing. Because of that, he kept quiet and let Seth work his…magic or whatever the hell it was, so that he could go home to his wife. Edward glanced around the first class cabin and noticed that, without fail, everyone had begun to worry about making it to the ground safely and as the plane pitched forward once again, he heard a collective gasp from the passengers. Finally he heard the sound of the landing gear being lowered and then shortly after, felt the ground meet the wheels in a grinding, cringing way.
All of the passengers, Edward included, let out a united sigh of relief as the pilot traveled down the runway, hitting every damn bump he possibly could.
"Can't you do something about that idiot?" Edward demanded as he was slammed harshly against the back of his seat for the umpteenth time.
Seth shrugged his shoulders and said, "Not my job once we land. We're lucky we made it to the ground as it is."
Edward gaped at the big man, wanting to ask what the hell good it did to have a guardian angel…being…person if he couldn't do something about the fool in the cockpit, but he grudgingly admitted that landing safely was imminently more important.
Once the plane came to a stop on the tarmac all the passengers, including Edward, stood up to hurriedly gather their things and get off the infernal plane.
"Edward, you might want to wait just a moment," Seth advised causing Edward to stop just in time for the plane to pitch forward one last time, causing numerous passengers to trip and fall, as well as spilling luggage from overhead compartments.
Edward caught the flight attendant's eyes and smirked as she rolled her eyes.
"Much better, Edward. You don't have to act like a hunter all the time stalking his prey. You can be infinitely charming when you want to be, but you don't have to use it to get something in return you know. Might be something for you to consider in the future," Seth said with a wink.
Edward was convinced that that particular topic would be discussed again in more depth very soon.
"Damn angel," Edward grumbled…again.
It seemed like that was a phrase that would become a staple in his vocabulary.
When Edward glanced down by his feet, his carry-on was there, waiting for him.
"Neat trick," Edward harrumphed as he watched the remaining first class passengers push and prod their way off the damnable aircraft.
"I have my uses every now and then," the angel said.
Edward had no comment for him but instead rolled his eyes. It amazed him how seamlessly he had accepted the presence of Seth as he exited the aircraft. Accepting things at face value was not something that was a normal occurrence for him. Usually he was quick to look for ulterior motives and hidden agendas. The fact that he didn't do that with this particular situation was telling.
"Well, that was quite the adventure," Edward commented to the young flight attendant as he passed her on his way to exit the plane.
She smiled at him, graciously and endearingly, and replied back, "Thankfully we all made it to the ground safely. I hope we see you again soon, Mr. Cullen. Thank you for flying with us."
"There may be hope for you yet," Seth commented as they made their way through the airport and out the front door where Edward's car and driver were blessedly waiting to take him home.
Edward really needed to stop by the office and do some work, but that longing feeling he'd had on the plane remained. He was very anxious to see Isabella. Edward was usually ready to get home, even though Isabella would never know or believe that, after a business trip. He knew he didn't behave as he should with her, but like her unexplained feelings toward him, he had the same in regard to her. Just being in the same vicinity as her had a way of calming him, of making him feel less alone than he normally felt. He didn't understand it, but he was very well aware of how he felt when he was home with her.
"What am I supposed to say to her?" Edward fearfully asked Seth once they were on the way home.
Seth arranged his large frame in the comfortable backseat of the sleek, black Cadillac Escalade that had arrived to pick up Edward and took a moment before he answered him. "As much as I hate to say this," Seth hesitantly began, "I'm not at all sure what to tell you."
Poor Edward gaped at the being, opening and closing his mouth numerous times which in turn made him look quite like a fish. A very annoyed, bordering on furious fish, but a fish nonetheless.
Seth had to try extremely hard to keep a serene façade, but inside the angel was laughing at the poor man. It was really quite humorous to see the normally calm, cool, and collected Edward Cullen reduced to a state of incoherency just thinking about going home to his adorable, diminutive wife.
"What the hell do you mean you're not sure?" Edward shrieked and Seth fought to keep from smiling again.
"Edward Anthony, just calm down right now! Damn, boy, you act like you've never talked to a woman before," Seth admonished, which caused Edward to turn a shade of red that the angel wasn't sure even had a name.
Edward ran a hand through the mess of bronze hair on his head and then pinched the bridge of his nose tightly between his thumb and index finger in a show of frustration that he had used since he could remember.
"Well, if what you say is the truth and my salvation depends on Isabella, how the hell do I talk to her now? Especially after all you've told me about how much of an ass I've been to her for all these years. The woman must positively despise me," Edward muttered softly as we watched the Chicago landscape pass by in a blur.
Edward swiped at the tears that threatened to fall from his eyes and then cursed himself for the show of weakness. At the age of thirty-five he could count the number of times he'd shed a tear on one hand and he'd still have fingers left when he was done. Self-preservation instincts often made one hardened and cold, not to mention afraid of opening up for fear of being hurt. Edward was no different in that regard, and he'd spent close to twenty years perfecting it.
Edward Cullen didn't cry, ever, but the tears he felt a moment ago returned again as he thought about his wife. Damn, he'd been such a blind bastard for the past five years, seeing only what he chose to see. While he was busy trying to bury himself in work and entertain himself with meaningless business endeavors, Isabella remained hopeful and loyal, at least according to the being beside him.
Though believing she hadn't truly been would make Edward feel marginally better, he knew Seth was correct. Not just because angels couldn't lie, but because he knew deep in his heart and soul that it was the truth. However blind, ignorant, and stubborn Edward had been for the past five years, he knew fundamentally that Isabella Marie was inherently…good.
"She should kick my arrogant, self-deluded ass," Edward sighed and threw his head back against the headrest.
"Indubitably." Seth snickered as he fiddled with the radio until he found a station that was playing a serene song that filled the car with its calming measures.
Edward let himself drift off with the notes, hoping that somehow, someway, he would be able to right the wrongs he'd perpetrated against her.
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During Edward's rather interesting flight home, Isabella Cullen prepared a feast fit for a king, or at the very least, a weary Fortune 500 CEO.
Deciding to make a traditional Italian meal, Isabella moved around her gourmet kitchen with a grace and efficiency even the most well-renowned chefs would admire. She began with a traditional antipasto with meats, cheeses and olives, accompanied with fresh bruschetta and crusty bread. Once that was plated and wrapped in plastic wrap and placed in the refrigerator, Isabella moved onto the main course which would be Portobello stuffed ravioli with a smoky, creamy Alfredo and sun-dried tomato sauce. She tossed a salad together with homemade dressing and chose a bottle of red wine from the wine cellar. Knowing her husband, even though the meals they ate together were few and far between, Isabella decided on mint chocolate chip ice cream for dessert. It was Edward's favorite, and after such an exhausting day of meetings and travel followed by the heavy meal, ice cream was the perfect end to his day.
Once the food was in the oven to warm and the rest in the fridge to stay cool, Isabella went upstairs to shower and change her clothes. As she stood under the shower and washed her mahogany hair with her coconut-lime scented shampoo she tried to remember the last meal she and Edward shared together, and with a pang of regret that was abnormally acute, she realized she couldn't even remember.
Isabella cooked every night for him, but it was usually left in the oven to stay warm for him to eat when he got home from the office. Because they slept in separate bedrooms and had for years now, she had usually retired to her room by the time he made it home. If she wasn't in her room already, Edward would sprint past her in the sitting room, up the stairs to his own room for the night, skipping dinner completely. Oh, they had the occasional meal together and spoke of their days as a normal couple would. There were evenings when they even went out, maybe to dinner or to the theater. Those were the times that Isabella was privy to the Edward Cullen that most never saw.
Sighing, Isabella finished her bathing routine, complete with conditioner for her shoulder length hair and shaving until she was smooth all over. She tried not to let herself get her hopes up for Edward's return in a few hours, but she couldn't help it. The trip had been so unexpected. She didn't have time to really even tell him goodbye and coupled with the storm she knew he had flown through, Isabella was feeling particularly anxious to see him.
Not that the sight of him wasn't always welcome, because Lord knew that the man was drop dead gorgeous, but right now all she really wanted to do was make sure he was all right. She dressed with Edward in mind when she put on a pair of silky navy blue lace panties and matching bra. She also put on a pair of soft gray Capri yoga pants and slipped a black tank top over her head. She used the blow dryer to style her hair until it fell across her shoulders in soft, smooth waves. After applying a minimal amount of makeup, which consisted only of a bit of mascara and lip gloss, she sprayed her favorite perfume on her small wrists and her graceful neck and slipped a pair of sandals on her delicate feet and made her way back downstairs. She checked the food again, poured a glass of wine, and then walked to the living room to turn on the stereo. The sounds of John Legend's soulful voice filled the room until she flipped the switch that would play the music outside on the deck.
Isabella picked up the manuscript she was currently editing and took it and her wine outside to sit on the comfortable chaise. The evening had just begun to cool and a soft breeze flitted across her skin; a remnant of the earlier storm. She lit a few candles for ambiance and settled in the chaise to work until her husband returned home.
Edward arrived at the house in Evanston shortly after Isabella fell asleep in the fading afternoon sun and as he approached his front door he realized he was blessedly alone. Thankfully Seth took his leave to let Edward and Isabella have their reunion in private. Not that Edward didn't believe that the annoyingly persistent and smug angel wasn't lurking somewhere keeping tabs on his every move.
With his hand on the doorknob Edward once again felt the shattering feeling as he remembered the events of the past few hours. Did he really spend an hour and half airplane flight talking to an angel? Did he really agree to change his life after he almost died in a plane crash that said angel saved him from? Was he really going to die sometime soon? Did he really not know his wife at all? Was he really the world's biggest asshole? As Edward set his bag down by the stairs and then smelled the delicious aroma that wafted from the kitchen he grudgingly admitted the answer to all of the preceding questions was a categorical yes.
But, Edward told himself, he would wait to explore all those questions and more until after he saw his wife. Where the hell was she? he muttered to himself as he poured himself a glass of the wine Isabella had left on the island. Reluctantly he admitted that she had no way of knowing when he would arrive because he had callously disregarded the need to call her and let her know. He walked to the refrigerator and opened the door letting out a small moan of appreciation when he spied the platter of antipasto Isabella had so skillfully prepared. He peeked in the oven and his mouth watered at the sight of his favorite dish bubbling inside.
Edward was, by this time, almost mad with his need to see his bride and it was the music playing that filtered in through the French doors that tipped him off to her whereabouts. Immediately he heard the words of the annoying angel person as he informed him of her love of gardening. As he stepped out onto the deck his eyes opened in surprise and his heart literally stopped beating from sheer delight and surprise.
The first thing Edward noticed was the massive explosion of color in his backyard. Flowers and bushes of every size and color lovingly flourished along beds, up trellises and in pots. The aroma was heavenly and Edward was in awe of the sight before him. How in the hell had he missed all of this? he wondered again for the umpteenth time.
The second thing that Edward noticed was by far the most enchanting. There his wife lay, sleeping peacefully in the chaise while the wind kissed her skin with its soft breeze. Isabella Marie was the most exquisite and magnificent creature he had ever laid eyes on and his heart filled with so many different things he couldn't name them all if he tried. Need, want, shame, guilt, but most of all love.
Deep, wondrous, everlasting love.
Edward looked at her again and this time paid attention to what she was wearing. She looked so beautiful and he could tell from the way her hair was arranged and her lips shone in the fading sunlight that she had dressed for him, hoping that this time things might be different between them. At twenty-nine she didn't look any different today than she did the day she first walked into his life. In all matter-of-fact, she was even lovelier now having spent years exercising and taking care of her body.
He'd been such a damn fool.
But there was time for recriminations later. Now he wanted to make love to his wife.
As if she could tell he was there, Isabella opened her eyes and stared at her husband.
"Hello, love. It's so nice to see you," Edward whispered as he ran his fingers down the side of her cheek and bent down to kiss her.
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Tuesday, November 7, 2000

Chapter 1

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Chapter 1
"You'd better enjoy that scotch while you can," said the man next to Edward. "I've been told you don't have much longer to enjoy the finer things in this life, Edward Anthony Cullen."
"Excuse me? Do I know you?" Edward asked, startled by the use of his whole name.
Edward hadn't noticed anyone sitting next to him on the late afternoon flight from La Guardia to O'Hare. He glanced to his right and took in his companion for the short hour and a half trip. The man was huge, like NFL linebacker huge, with short brown hair and the bluest eyes Edward had ever seen. And they…twinkled? What the fuck? Edward thought surely he was seeing things because when he looked back at the man, his eyes looked like every other set of blue eyes he'd seen before. The man was expensively dressed. There was no doubting the Italian cut of the gray suit he wore or the costly, gleaming black Italian leather shoes the man had on his feet.
Edward knew precisely how much the shoes cost, he had the exact pair at home. Isabella had bought them just a few months before.
Isabella…Edward's wife of five years…five very long, often lonely years for both of them.
Edward picked up his glass and took a sip of the scotch. He shuddered as the liquid burned his throat going down. The stuff was mediocre at best, but that was what he got for flying commercial, he thought to himself.
Damn last minute meeting, Edward cursed to himself again. He'd had to make the emergency trip to meet with a disgruntled client. Thinking back over the reason for the meeting had him gritting his teeth in frustration. Incompetent fools, he thought.
"My name is Seth," the large man told Edward in a voice that seemed to fill the entire cabin of the plane. In fact, the voice was so loud he cringed in response but as he looked around, Edward noticed that no one else was affected. Not one person even glanced their way.
As soon as that thought registered with him, his stomach roiled and he cursed the spicy Mexican food he'd eaten for lunch.
Edward very pointedly ignored the obnoxiously loud beast of a man and thought to himself that the best way to get through the flight home would be to just pretend his seat mate was not there.
"I'm an angel," the man named Seth said, then continued, "in fact, I'm your own personal guide to the afterlife. You have a lot of work to do and not a lot of time to do it, so I've been sent to help you along."
Edward shook his head and signaled for the flight attendant. Surely he didn't hear what he just thought he did, he lamely tried to convince himself. He smiled as she approached. Edward Cullen had been using his natural born magnetism and charisma since before he knew what those two words meant to get what he wanted, especially from members of the opposite sex. This time was no different. He was going to demand to change his seat but when she approached and asked what he needed, the words he wanted to say got stuck in his throat.
When he glanced to his right to point out what his problem was there was no one there. What the hell? So instead, Edward asked for a refill of his drink.
He felt his stomach churn again and seriously thought about suing the restaurant for serving food that made people hallucinate because there was no way in hell what he thought just happened, really happened. It wasn't possible.
"She can't see me, Eddie. In fact, no one but you has the pleasure of knowing of my existence. You should count yourself extremely fortunate," the deep, rich voice said.
The flight attendant returned with his drink and handed it to him with a bashful smile and a blush on her cheeks. The poor woman's reaction to Edward was something that he was quite used to, and he chuckled to himself when her breathing picked up when he smiled back at her.
So totally predictable, Edward mused silently, forgetting momentarily the invisible presence to his right. Well, pointedly trying to ignore whatever was going on next to him would be more precise. He picked up the glass and took another tentative sip of the amber liquid. He shuddered again and set the glass down in frustration.
How fucking hard was it to serve a decent scotch on this damn flight? Edward haughtily thought to himself. Again he cursed the meeting and the fact he was unable to take the company jet to New York City. Especially since his brother, Emmett, and his wife Rosalie, along with their children, were currently comfortably ensconced in it, while he was drinking barely palatable scotch and hearing voices after eating what seemed to be spoiled Mexican food.
"That bad, huh?" the large man asked from his seat on Edward's right. Seth chuckled and then waved his hand over the amber liquid. "See if that's better," he said with a point of his chin in Edward's direction.
Edward rolled his eyes, not wanting to play along with his mysterious flight companion, but he picked the glass up and took a tentative sip to appease him. None of this was really happening anyway, Edward thought as he tried valiantly to convince himself.
It was delicious. His mouth exploded as the liquid flowed over his tongue and down his throat. He was immediately flooded with warmth and the taste reminded him of Isabella. Soft, smooth, enticing. It was the best thing he had ever tasted and he wanted more of it. Immediately. He wished to taste the exquisite elixir every day for the rest of his life, if he could.
"What brand is this?" Edward demanded of the man to his right, and Seth just shook his head in response.
"It can't be bought, no matter how much money you have," Seth told him and Edward again felt a stab of…something in his stomach.
Those words seemed to carry another meaning altogether but he wasn't able to pinpoint exactly what.
It was late afternoon and a summer storm was brewing outside the plane's windows and lightning flashed dangerously close to the aircraft. If his damn plane wouldn't have been delayed in New York, he'd be on the ground right now, ahead of the storm, Edward thought to himself, and cursed his brother…again.
"What the hell do you want?" he demanded of the big man, tired of playing whatever game he was unwittingly a part of.
"I don't want anything, Edward Anthony Cullen. Like I said, my job, as it was put forth to me, is to help you get your life, such as it is, in order before it is your time to go," Seth told Edward.
"Go where?" Edward asked the Seth person…being. Whatever the hell he was.
Seth shrugged his shoulders at Edward and said, "Wherever it is you believe your soul goes after you die."
"You're telling me I'm going to die soon?" Edward asked Seth incredulously. "Impossible," he went on. "I'm young. I'm in perfect health. I have more money than I can spend in this lifetime, probably more than I can spend in ten lifetimes. I am a powerful man. I can have what I want, when I want. I am not going to die anytime soon," he stated emphatically.
Seth shrugged his shoulders at Edward and regarded him shrewdly. "Big deal, Eddie. You are rich and powerful. You think the world should bow at your feet and you have no time for those you have deemed unworthy of you. But you can't have everything you want. You can't buy immortality and you can't buy the affections of your lovely Isabella either."
At the mention of his bride's name, Edward felt a sharp, stabbing pain in his chest. In fact, the pain was localized right where his heart was. Edward gaped at Seth as he tried to rub the pain away to no avail. Seth watched Edward as he futilely attempted to ease the ache and waited until he said, "Make it stop. Please!" Seth waved his massive hand again and the pain ceased.
"What the hell was that?" Edward challenged, somewhat afraid of what was happening to him. He couldn't dispute the pain he'd just felt and he couldn't deny that there was …something going on that he didn't quite understand.
Seth turned his blue eyes and Edward cringed from the intensity he saw there. Suddenly, he was very afraid.
"That, Edward Anthony Cullen," Seth bellowed in such a voice that Edward felt it in his bones, "was only a brief, albeit painful reminder of the pain you have caused our Isabella. I have to tell you in all honesty, Eddie my boy, you are one giant piece of excrement."
The lightning outside the airplane continued to crackle and flash, and Edward suddenly felt like he was falling apart. It was as if he were a piece of glass slammed up against a brick wall, shattering into unrecognizable pieces as they fell to the ground. One more brilliant flash of light burned brightly, and then the plane lurched and began to fall. Trays and belongings began to fly through the aircraft as the pilot tried valiantly to right the large piece of machinery.
Seth sat docilely beside Edward as Edward was pitched forward against his seat belt. Edward's life began to flash before his eyes and it was not a pretty sight in the least. He didn't care; he just wanted it to stop. If that meant it was his time to go now, so be it. But after a few moments, he realized he did care.
He cared a lot.
He closed his eyes to try to halt the onslaught of images, but it was a wasted effort. Moment after moment after miserable moment he relived in vivid clarity and it was…painful. So much regret; so many wasted opportunities.
"Save me!" Edward begged the so-called angel to his right and after a brief moment of scrutiny by the big man, Seth raised his eyebrows and smirked as the plane suddenly righted itself and began on its course toward Chicago again.
Edward gasped for breath and looked around the first class cabin taking note of his fellow passengers as they sat, still sleeping or talking softly amongst themselves, as if nothing had just happened. He tried to take a few deep breaths and eventually he felt his heart beating a normal rhythm again.
"Nice fake with the almost crash," Edward snarled at Seth.
Seth waved his hand dismissively and told Edward, "Not a fake at all, Eddie. It is what would have happened had I not been here to intervene. Someone thinks you are worth saving. I seriously have my doubts, but who am I to argue?" The angel shrugged his shoulders and gazed at him.
Edward shook his head in disbelief. This could not be happening…could it? There was no way that he, Edward Cullen, multimillionaire and heir to the Cullen fortune, even though it was only because of a stroke of good luck, could be sitting in the first class section of an airplane that an angel had saved from certain peril.
"What the hell is going on here?" Edward muttered to himself and he felt that same falling apart sensation he had just moments before.
He was not used to the feelings currently coursing through his body, and he didn't like it at all. He was Edward Cullen, damn it. He was CEO of the country's largest publishing firm and at thirty-five he was the youngest by far. Cullen Publishing was the most prestigious firm in the country and he had been in charge for over five years now. He had a beautiful home in Evanston and enjoyed the finer things in life whenever he chose to do so. Isabella was a perfect wife; she was nice to look at, kept an immaculate home, and left him to do as he pleased. He enjoyed having her, and even though she had held firm to her belief that she would not sleep with him before they were married, she was an astonishingly satisfying bed partner.
"What do you want?" Edward asked again of the man he was slowly beginning to believe was exactly who, and what, he said he was, no matter how extraordinary that belief was.
Seth smiled at Edward, a bright, engaging smile in all matter-of-fact, and said simply, "What I want is irrelevant, Edward Anthony. I told you before and I'll say it again, I've been sent to help you fix the mess you've made of your life. You don't have much longer on this Earth. It is my job to help you, if it's possible, right as many of the wrongs as you can before your time is up."
"Why?" Edward asked, honestly curious as to why it was important to do such a thing.
The big man shrugged his broad shoulders and said, "Why not? Do you really want to leave this world and leave behind those you have wronged knowing you could have made things right with just a little bit of effort on your part?"
Edward sat back in his seat and thought for a moment. He winced as he remembered just a few of the memories that had just before flown through his mind.
"What exactly are we talking here?" he shrewdly asked, wanting to make sure what the parameters of this deal were before he agreed to it.
Not that he believed he was going to die anytime soon, mind you. However, if he were to meet with an untimely passing, Edward grudgingly admitted to himself that it would be nice to not feel like the bastard he believed himself to be when the time came. Introspection was definitely not one of his favorite past times, but even he couldn't deny the bitter taste that was left in his mouth after he watched his wretched life pass before his eyes.
Seth regarded Edward silently for a few moments and Edward was uncomfortable with the gesture. Usually it was he who did the staring, and he was quite good at it, too. One of his most enjoyable things to do was to watch others squirm in his presence.
How utterly pathetic, Edward ruminated to himself and shook his head sadly. So many damn regrets.
"It's simple really, Edward Anthony," the angel began. "I make suggestions, you follow them. When the end comes you will leave this world a much happier and peaceful being. Simple as that," Seth finished with a flourish and a snap of his massive fingers.
The sound was so loud that Edward had to cover his ears, but once again he was the only one affected and no one else noticed at all.
"What if you tell me to do something and I don't want to do it?" Edward asked as he thought about all the angles of this…deal or whatever the hell it was. He couldn't believe he was having this conversation. He really couldn't believe it, but after the things that just flashed in his mind, Edward was willing to accept Seth as who, and what he said he was. Dying was definitely not on his list of things he wanted to do, but the thought of ridding himself of the guilt and the self-loathing he carried around with him on a daily basis, was a most welcome thought.
The big man rolled his eyes at Edward. "Then you don't do it. Edward, you still have your free will. However, I highly doubt you will be saying no to me at all. If something comes up and you don't like it, we'll negotiate. Piece of cake," Seth stated.
Edward could not stop the shiver that went down his spine as the angel repeated the words he often used when he was trying to convince a client to sign on with his firm, and he usually used them when the client didn't want to do something.
"What kind of time line are we talking?" he asked, still not fully believing that he was having this particular conversation with a man that claimed to be an angel.
"I was not given a definitive answer to that question, Edward Anthony, but suffice it to say, you don't have time to waste trying to outmaneuver me. I've been around for a long, long, very long time, my young friend, and it will take someone who possesses even more talent than you to try to get me to say something I don't want to say. Nice try though. I give you props for the effort." Seth smirked at Edward.
Well shit, now what the hell do I do? Edward thought to himself as he ran his hands through the riotous bronze hair on top of his head. He closed his emerald green eyes and thought over the facts as he knew them. First, there was a large man sitting next to him that claimed to be an angel, or a being of some sort. Second, said being supposedly was sent to guide him and help him tie up loose ends before he died. That was a most unwelcome fact to consider, but it did need to be taken into account. Third, whatever that was a few minutes ago with the almost plane crash caused him to take a look at his life and admit he didn't like much of what he had seen.
Edward opened his eyes after taking a deep, somewhat calming breath and considered the Seth person for a few moments before he began to speak. "So we sign some sort of deal or what not?" he asked, wondering what exactly such a document would say.
"You are a man of your word are you not, Edward Anthony?" Seth replied back. "You may be a terrible employer, an even worse son, a horse's ass of a brother, and without a doubt, one of the most neglectful husbands ever. You don't seem to take to heart the wedding vows you spoke during your marriage ceremony, though at least you've somehow managed to remain faithful, but it can never be said that you backed out of a business deal. So in accordance with that, a handshake between the two of us will suffice."
Seth held his large hand out for Edward to shake and after a brief hesitation on Edward's part, he clasped his hand with Seth's and they shook.
Edward could not help but feel that he somehow had just agreed to much more than a promise to listen to the advice of an angel…um, being.
Shit, Edward thought. What the hell do I call the guy? I'm not sure I can go along with all this angel business, he thought to himself, but even he had to admit that the evidence that Seth was a being that possessed extreme talents was at the present, overwhelming in its totality.
As Edward and Seth sat in a mostly comfortable silence for a bit, Edward found himself more at peace than he could ever remember. He was filled with a feeling of calm and warmth that spread throughout his entire body and the feeling felt like it was unable to be contained. For the first time in a long while, he experienced what true joy, true happiness, and true love felt like. He had the overwhelming belief that everything would be okay, that he would be able to fix the mess of his life. It was not a welcome realization to fully comprehend the disaster his life was and had been, and the thought of being able to fix that filled him with a sense of completeness. It was the most amazing and intense thing he had ever felt and he never wanted the feeling to go away.
After a few more moments of bliss, the feeling gradually faded away and left behind only a lingering sensation that soothed him immensely.
Edward looked wide-eyed at Seth and asked, "Is that what it will feel like when I die?"
Seth chuckled and looked at Edward as if he were an adorable child instead of a thirty-five year-old man. "It's a hint, a mere blip of what awaits you if you are successful in digging yourself out of the mess you've created with your selfish and overbearing ways."
As Edward settled back in his seat, he smiled softly, and realized with a start, he couldn't wait to get home to see his wife.
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Thirty thousand feet below the plane that currently housed her husband, Isabella looked up from her gardening and wondered about Edward's trip. She knew how upset he was at having to go and she hoped it had at least gone well. Maybe then he would be in a better mood by the time he arrived home.
As she dug her hands into the warm, moist soil she couldn't help but sigh as she thought about her husband. Isabella knew that she had seen a side of him he rarely let others see, and even then, they were only brief glimpses. Those glimpses, however, were enough to sustain her, enough for her to hold onto because she knew, without a doubt, that beneath his many layers there was a man that was worthy of her love and devotion. He was a difficult man, there was no disputing that, but she loved him.
Madly, passionately, irrevocably.
Isabella Swan Cullen had fallen head over heels in love with Edward Cullen the moment she saw him for the first time. She had been twenty-four at the time and had just graduated with top honors from Loyola University with a Masters Degree in Modern Literature. At the time, she had briefly considered continuing her education and completing the requirements to receive her Ph.D., but decided that she'd had enough of academics for the time being.
From the time Isabella was a little girl her mother, Renée, had instilled in her a love of reading that only grew over the years. There was hardly ever a time that Isabella didn't have a book at the ready. She devoured novels that were years ahead of her age before she was ten, and her voracious appetite for reading any and everything only grew stronger with time.
Her father, Charlie, insisted that his daughter be a well-rounded young woman so a compromise was made. Isabella could spend as much time reading as she wished, as long as she participated in extra curricular activities as well. Charlie was a pragmatic man and there was no way his only and most beloved daughter would become an outcast because she loved to read.
With some trepidation, Isabella decided she would try to play soccer. It wasn't that she was afraid to try, but the truth that was abundantly clear to anyone who had ever watched the young girl attempt anything that required coordination, was that Isabella lacked it…immensely. Much to everyone's surprise, most especially Charlie's, she was a picture of grace and agility on the soccer pitch. Put cleats on her feet and give her a ball to run with and she turned into a vision that enchanted all who watched her. Teammate, coach, spectator or opposition, it didn't matter. From the time Isabella started playing at the age of ten all the way through until she graduated from college as an undergrad, you could find her in one of two places. When she wasn't in the library studying or curled up with a book during her free time, she was on the soccer field practicing or playing.
Charlie, Renée, and Isabella lived in the suburbs of Chicago in Wheaton where Charlie was the Chief of Police. Renée owned a small art studio where you could find her giving pottery lessons and conducting art classes frequently. They were a solidly middle class, Catholic family and Isabella grew up in a happy, loving home with two parents that had no qualms about showing their affection for each other in front of their daughter. The only regret her parents had was Renée's inability to have more children after their daughter was born. Due to a complicated delivery that resulted in her mom hemorrhaging, the doctors and Charlie had to make a split second decision that resulted in a complete hysterectomy for Renée. After a brief period of depression for Isabella's mom as she came to terms with what happened to her, her parents focused their abundant love on their precious daughter.
Isabella was a brilliant child and her parents were so proud of the person their daughter was. She was well-loved by friends and teachers both, all throughout her schooling. She was kind, unfailingly polite and respectful and above all else, the most selfless person most would ever meet.
That is not to say that dear Isabella was a pushover, because nothing could be further from the truth. While she inherited her slightly reserved and pragmatic approach to most situations from her adored father, Isabella also inherited her mother's zest for life and with it, her mother's refusal to allow anyone to dictate to her who and what she should be. Once Isabella made a decision about something, it would take an act of Congress, at the very least, to get her to change her mind. You would be hard-pressed to find a person more stubborn than Isabella Marie Swan! Not only that, Isabella had a fiery temper when provoked. She didn't show it often, but once it came out, you'd never forget. She was passionate in all she did, whether it was her work, her faith, or her love for her husband. Isabella Swan Cullen was no shrinking violet, not by a long shot.
Between her mother and her Nonna, there was no way Isabella wouldn't have learned from early on to stand her ground and stand up for herself. Charlie had his hands full with the women in his life that was for sure, but he wouldn't have had it any other way. Nonna Santoro was a blessing and since the passing of his parents and Renée's father, Angelo, Gianna Santoro was the only family Charlie and Renée had left. The Italian matriarch was a welcome presence in all of their lives but especially to Isabella. The relationship she had with her Nonna was profound and incredibly special to them both.
Isabella lived a full, carefree life and she blossomed into a striking young woman by the time she entered high school. She enjoyed hanging out with her friends, much like any other girl her age, but she usually spent her Friday and Saturday nights either competing in soccer matches, watching her team's football games in the fall and baseball games in the spring with her father, or quietly reading or learning to cook from her Nonna.
Boys pursued her relentlessly, falling captive to her beauty as well as her wit and grace, but Isabella rebuffed them all. It wasn't that she didn't like them, for she had countless friends that were male, but Isabella approached romance the way she did with all other things in her life. She had no problems being friends with boys and even went on the occasional date to a movie or to dinner, but that was it. Until she found the man of her dreams, the one that would steal her heart and treasure it like the gift it was, friendly dates were as far as she was willing to go.
It was a bit old-fashioned, even Isabella would admit to that, but she couldn't help what she believed and more importantly, what she wanted. After watching her parents and listening to countless stories about her Nonna and her beloved Angelo, Isabella would settle for nothing less than a love that would last a lifetime.
So all through high school, college, and then graduate school, Isabella dated casually but protected her heart, and her virtue, until she was ready to give both to the man she would marry and spend her life with. As soon as she laid her deep, coffee-colored eyes on one Edward Cullen she knew unequivocally that he would be that man.
Her heart recognized its other half the instant she stepped into his office for an interview to be Cullen Publishing's newest editor. As a recent graduate, Isabella was lacking the practical experience such a position would normally require but everyone from Edward to his father and brother couldn't ignore the glowing recommendations that accompanied her résumé.
The instant attraction wasn't one-sided either. The moment Isabella Swan had walked into his office, Edward wanted her. She was beautiful, smart, and above all else, a conquest he was determined to enjoy.
Edward hired Isabella for her qualifications, but he admitted to himself during a brief moment of introspection, he also hired her because he couldn't bear the thought of not seeing her after their initial interview. There was something there, some foreign feeling that he was loathe and admittedly terrified to explore when it came to Isabella, but he knew from the first moment he saw her, he would have her.
Come hell or high water, he would have her.
Edward was so used to getting what he wanted because he wanted it; he never even gave it a moment's thought that Isabella Marie would be any different. How wrong that turned out to be! He learned quickly that the only way to win her heart was to be as open and honest as he was able to be. With her, he was different. With her, he felt as if he could let the mask fall and let her see the real him. He tried, and he succeeded. They took long walks through the park. They discussed history, politics, art, and music. He took her to the opera; she took him to the amusement park. When it was just the two of them, he was a completely different man than he was at other times and with other people. More often than not he was still guarded, he still hid behind his walls, but Isabella was able to see past them to see the man that lay beneath. Isabella tested him, often, and called him on his actions more times than he cared to admit. He was also reluctant to admit he rather enjoyed it as well.
Their marriage wasn't perfect, not by a long shot, but over the years Isabella had learned many things about her husband. When he was away from the office, when he relaxed and let his guard down, he was a completely different man. When he let himself go and just be in the moment with her, he was mesmerizing. It didn't happen often, mind you. More often than not Edward hid from her. She knew it and she even understood when he pulled away from her. She didn't know what haunted him so, what dark things he kept locked inside, but she knew they were there.
There was a deep and powerful connection between the two of them, some unexplainable, unseen force that drew them together even though it didn't make complete sense. Isabella couldn't pinpoint exactly what it was, but she felt it whenever she questioned what she was doing. Growing up with her loving parents, hearing stories about her Nonna and her Angelo gave her the role models of what she wanted from her own marriage. It was hard to admit at times that her marriage wasn't what she envisioned, but in all truthfulness whenever she pictured her future, she always saw Edward with her.
Besides, she really didn't have a choice in the matter. She loved Edward Cullen, fully and totally, faults and all.
The cell phone that rang in her pocket brought Isabella back to the present and after a brief conversation with her mother, she returned the phone to her pocket, sat back on her knees, and wiped the sweat off her brow with the back of her hand. Isabella looked around her garden and couldn't help but smile at the large amount of work she'd been able to get done while Edward was away.
Isabella missed her husband, desperately so as a matter-of-fact. It would make him uncomfortable to acknowledge it however, but that didn't make it any less true. Edward and Isabella's marriage looked perfect to anyone who didn't look too closely. Isabella didn't doubt Edward's love for her, or at least as much as he would allow himself to feel for her, and she knew that she would never love anyone else for as long as she lived except for him.
She prayed daily that with time her love and patience would break through the impenetrable fortress Edward had buried his heart in. Isabella had faith that the day would come when he would allow himself to be happy, that he would allow her to show him how much she loved him. He'd done it before, even though he would withdraw from her afterward. Isabella knew Edward understood she loved him, but he was just unsure and afraid to let her in.
With a deep sigh, Isabella stood up and took off her gardening gloves. After she dusted off her favorite pair of well-worn jeans, she made her way into her picture perfect home where she would make another attempt, in a long line of hundreds, thousands, to show Edward, again, that she loved him.
As she ascended the stairs to shower and get ready for her husband she said a prayer and hoped today would be the day it would be answered.
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